Dreadfully sorry to hear that Brad.Sorry if this isnt the place but ill say it anyway. A mate of mine took his life last week through depression and a few other things. He loved manly and went to numerous games in corporate boxes , he was 32 . I just want to say that if anyone has any problems and is not coping please seek help for this terrible disease. R.i.p Ad.
If it's any good I've been in the same spot you are now.
Don't let anyone tell you how to grieve, think or get over it.
Do all that in your own time your way.
All the best mate.